Friday, November 16, 2012

It starts in 2009, when after our loss in 2008, my family Dr wanted us to start with a fertility Dr, as it had taken us a year and a half to get pg the first time.
In May of 2009, I ended up with some weird pain, paralyzing stuff going on ( ended up paralyzed from the thigh down on my right side), so instead of starting with an RE, I ended up at a Neurosurgeon's and a Neurologist, being told I needed spinal surgery, a disc in my back had ruptured and was pressing on my spinal cord & I needed surgery ASAP, that happened in July 2009, they removed the disc, fused the 2 vertebrae, put in 2 steel rods and 4 metal screws. We were told to wait 6 months before TTCing, and that was fine.

In Jan of 2010 we were finally able to see the RE ! We though great, shouldn't take much, i was charting, and other than ovulating around CD18-19 I though , OK, this shouldn't take much.. However, the RE saw me & thought I might have a genetic issue, so she wanted to investigate that first, she did a U/S, which looked OK, and then pulled the usual B/W, and that's where things went down hill...

She noticed that my Creatine levels were reallllly off which suggested a Kidney issue, she then refereed me out to one of the larger Genetic clinics in Toronto.

From there, she pretty much told me unless I got the all clear from the geneticist, she would not work with me.

I then met with my wonderful Geneticist & her wonderful staff, they started off by sending me for an abdominal U/S, which showed issues, and they pulled lots of different B/W for different genetic testing. She then refereed my to my Nephrologist who in Dec 2010 diagnosed me with ending of stage 2 beginning of stage 3 Kidney disease, and at that point he told me that I should not get Pg, as everything was very unstable.

Working with him & my family Dr, we got my Blood Pressure under control, which helped stabilize my Kidneys, which actually improved their function back up to stage 2, which just requires monitoring , Blood pressure control, and a lower sodium diet (which is reallllly hard for me because I LOVE Salt)

My actual condition is 3 fold, my kidneys are a lot smaller than normal, they are filled with scar tissue, and the Tubules are blocked (they are the little tubes in your kidneys that help filter).

So in Sept of this year when I saw him, he deemed everything stable, and gave his blessing to TTC, with the caveat, of NO fertility drugs,or treatment etc. as he believes that they will affect my kidney levels & make them unstable, and he does not want to risk that, along with the additional issues being Pg will cause.

And as for the Geneticist.. She is still playing with my blood !! She believes that she has found something that would put a name to all the issues that both me & my sister have (that's a whole another book) it is called Alagille Syndrome, which is not really a concern, but they will do genetic testing if I ever get Pg, if I want.

And that is it..

Anything else, just ask ! Big Smile






 

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Lest We Forget...

So today is my Birthday Woo HOO !
The one memory I always have of my birthday growing up, is the Remembrance Day Ceremonies at school, and how it always deeply touched me, The sacrifice of so many Canadian Forces so that I could have my freedom....


In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie,
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.


Poppies

Thursday, June 2, 2011

I.Can't.Breath.

I can't breath... I am struggling right now, I am still unemployed and it is weighting  heavy on me, I hate it, I have had a few interviews, even 2nd interviews at 2 places, and still nothing. I HATE IT DAMMIT !!

This cycle crushed me, I had my hopes up to damn high and they got blown out of the water this morning with a BFN, I just want to curl up and cry... About everything....

I feel so overwhelmed, I.can't.breath.

Monday, April 4, 2011

Testing ...


Well that's life..

Thing can never be quiet in this family....

I got laid off.... Yup it sucks, so I am job hunting once again...

My dear sister scared the crap out of us by being admitted to the hospital, with sky-high Blood Pressure and low heart rate... Thanks !!! I don't know what I would do if I lost her, She is my best friend. She will be there for a few more days, until they figure everything out.

But alas I don't think she's going to keel over anytime soon.

I have not heard from Mount Sinai yet... big surprise there.

I have not heard from K, so I gather she was pissed at my email.. oh well no big loss there.

I went to the inaugural meeting of the Toronto Face2Face group , WOW what a wonderful group of extraordinaire ladies, their stories were heart breaking, mine felt so insignificant compared to most of them, but they nonetheless treated me the same. I hope we can do this once a month.

One day I will tell my story on here, I'm just not sure when, maybe in May...

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Well I guess I should Update...

Ahh a New Year....

Same shit different year...

We finally saw an Re in January, uhhh yeah... She thinks I have Turner's syndrome.. fun times, we are waiting on the genetic  results, they should be in by June (Yes Canada is fucking slow at this stuff) She pulled other B/W, everything seems to be OK, except... My creatine/ kidney function again... She wants to get me into the high-risk program at Mount Sinai in Toronto to do a work up first before we get PG, I finally found out from them (after bugging them for an appointment date) that MS will personally be contacting me with an appointment, IN A FEW MONTHS !!! She would prefer that we "not try" but she would be OK with us if we got PG on our own in the mean time.

Cork and I talked, we decided, Fuck it,  we didn't want to wait, so we are trying on our own again... Hopefully it will happen soon, I'm not counting on it though.

Me and K had a falling out, after a lot of BS, including her not calling after she had her LO, and a few disrespectful & hurtful remarks, I sent her an email telling her how I felt.
Surprise surprise, she never answered me..

Other than that , not much going on in my world.

Take care & love you all !

Michelle

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Sorry It has been so Long......

Wow, umm I have been a really bad blogger....

Work has been going good, boring & quiet but OK.

We went away again... LOL , back to Mexico & the Riviera Maya.
This time we stayed at the Gran Bahia Principe Akumal, very nice resort on a big complex, with 2 other resorts that we had access to, The Coba & Tulum.

Katie has gone back home to Texas, so we didn't see her again, but we did meet up with another Bumpie, who was staying at Akumal w/ her Hubby & her family who stayed at Coba.

Kelin & Kevin were very nice & we spent a bit of time with them over the week we were there. We joined them on an excursion on day.... Wow it was a great day !

First we all met for breakfast, then headed out to meet our private tour guide from Edventures,
first stop was the Mayan ruins of Tulum & the awesome beach there (Cork LOVED it ! ), then we headed to Dos Ojos (two eyes) where we went snorkeling in the underground Cenotes, apparently I am a natural at this..., then we went to Akumal Bay, where some of us went snorkeling with the Sea Turtles, that was really cool ! (the turtles reminded me of the turtle from Finding Nemo), Then came lunch at a beach side restaurant in Akumal Bay, (chicken Quesadias anyone ?), then we headed out to Yal-Ku which is a spring feed lagoon that also gets saltwater from the ocean, loads of tropical fish there !

It was a great day ! Then Friday night we had drinks & dinner with the whole group, and had a great time. Saturday night we met up with Kelin & Kevin for the last time & had drinks before saying good-bye....

At this resort we got 3 Ala-cart dinners, our first was at Portofino (Italian) was pretty good, then we went to Arlequin (International) was great ! beautifully presented ! the last was Gran Tortuga (Brazilian) was def. different ! The rest of the time we eat at the Buffet which was decent...

I wanted to stay & not come back....I love it there.

It was nice to get some warm Caribbean Sun....and spend time with Cork

Take Care

Michelle