Saying Good Bye to Moe

Today broke my heart.. our boy cat Moe, had been "off " for the last week or so, to the point he wasn't eating or drinking much of anything, we knew we had to take him in to see the Vet, since we had moved we took him to a new vet...

They examined him first & then did blood work & x-rays, the x-rays were not clear, there was something going on... His B/W showed a high white blood count and a high level of Calcium, which could possibly indicate Cancer.

The Vet asked our permission to investigate further, and called in a Ultrasound Tech, he was there in less than 15 mins, we stood there (me petting Moe's head) while the tech started.. Almost immediately he said "prep for surgery" there was a foreign object in his stomach, things didn't look right. The decision was made to do exploratory surgery and either they would find the blockage, remove it & Moe would come home in a day or 2, or it would be bad & would need to say goodbye..

A few minutes after they started, they called us in to the back, they had him open & wanted to show us ***graphic warning !!**


His poor little body, his whole GI tract was covered in a very fast moving Cancer tumors, they urged us to say goodbye, if we were lucky we might have had a few days more with him.

I can honestly say I flipped, I was going to have to say Goodbye to my stinky butt, my baby boy, my headbutter, the one who follows me into the bathroom all the time....

They covered up the incision, and we came back in to be with him while we let him go.

We got Moe at 6 months old from a rescue, he was quite the jumper, he will missed so much..

End of 2013

Wow, I am so bad at keeping up my blog..

The last few months of 2013 have flown by ! I have begun a new venture, I got into card making a while ago, I love making Custom  cards for people ! So going on that theme, I went to the big Creativ Festival that is held twice a year here, and signed up to be a Stampin Up Demonstrator ! I love their stuff ! I am planning to do an  Open House sometime in Jan to start things off & then go from there.

 https://www.facebook.com/pages/Signed-Sealed-Delivered/449974231740884?bookmark_t=page#


We went on our last trip of the year.. To Montego Bay Jamaica.  LOVED IT !! It was one of the best trips we have been on, not because of a "fancy room" or anything like that ( the rooms were decent !) but because of the people & the vibe ! We met some of the warmest, welcoming people. The beach was beautiful & the countryside was so lush & green. We have plans to go back in 2 years for our 10th wedding anniversary !

I am hoping 2014 treats everyone well <3 p="">

The past few weeks have been kinda crappy in the TTCAL world for my friends, I just want to shake a higher being and say "WHAT THE FUCK !!!!"

My friend Jennie had her 3 loss, I found out after work, when I checked my phone after work, I turned to Cork, with tears & said, this universe sucks..

Then on Tues morning, I woke up to a message from my friend Amy, she asked her H to message me & another friend, that after having her rainbow baby on Sept 18th, her little boy Finn passed away from a sudden & tragic accident at 11 days old.. Cork came downstairs to find me in tears, and I just looked at him & asked him "WHY ???"


My heart hurts...

Blah blah blah.. That's just how I'm feeling lately.

Work is annoying me, I am feeling really undervalued :/

But I did take a big step on something else in my life, I finally got my G1 Driver's Licence.. Here in Ontario, they do a graduated system, you get your G1, have that for 8- to a year, then you get your G2 for a year or more, then you finally get your full licence.

Other than that not much has been going on in the Wicked household...

End of june..

I have been ok lately..

I did a FB friend cleanse, I defriended some people, some were Ladies from TB, I don't feel bad about it.. The way I looked at it was, if you haven't bothered to say anything to me in the last while, esp. with all the Dr's visits , then you didn't need to be my FB friend. That and I had a feeling some people were telling others about what I was saying. Yes I know this is public blah blah blah but my FB is set to private, so that only friends can see things..

No real changes to anything right now, still at stage 3 :/

I met up with old friends to see New Kids on The Block on June 7th, and I am going again on July 28th, this time with my sister Julie and Lauren again  !! I love hanging out with my friend Lauren, we have known each other since elementary school, her and her wife are Fab ! I love seeing these guys in concert !

Me and C did a last minute getaway to Niagara Falls recently & we went to Niagara On the Lake, I definitely want to go back to NOTL & do a few wine tours..

Well we have another trip booked ! This time to Jamaica, more specifically to Montego Bay, I can't wait, sun, warmth, beach & drinks !! This will be an anniversary/birthday trip in Nov.

This is my heart yet again...

After the Kidney diagnosis, we had decided to Adopt ! That was all fine & dandy until today...

I had an urgent (meaning almost 2 month wait) to see my Kidney dr, because of my episode in Jan with my Blood pressure.

Fuck this shit ! My fuction went down again.. I am now in stage 3, can't get Pg on my own, and Adoption talk is off.. I can't in good concious try & bring a child in to my home knowing that I am not in the best health.

So.. Umm yeah, we decided to look into Adoption !!!  It was a hard decision to come to, but with everything else going on & the fact that my cycles are getting lonnnger (50 + days) , that we decided to look into adopting through Children's Aid, which is like adopting through social services in the US.

I am looking at it, that we would be able to give a child a loving home, that they might not be otherwise able to have.

we decided that we are comfortable with ages birth to 1 1/2 years old. I can't wait, it has actually made me excited again ! And TTCing was not doing that, I was getting more frustrated than anything, that my body was not co-operating ! This takes my body (other than the medical stuff required for our homestudy) out of the equation, am I sad that I won't have a Bio child or experience child birth ?? Yes, but in the grand scheme of things I want to be a mother most of all, and this will get us there.

It will take time, tears & effort, but it WILL be worth it in the end !