The past few weeks have been kinda crappy in the TTCAL world for my friends, I just want to shake a higher being and say "WHAT THE FUCK !!!!"

My friend Jennie had her 3 loss, I found out after work, when I checked my phone after work, I turned to Cork, with tears & said, this universe sucks..

Then on Tues morning, I woke up to a message from my friend Amy, she asked her H to message me & another friend, that after having her rainbow baby on Sept 18th, her little boy Finn passed away from a sudden & tragic accident at 11 days old.. Cork came downstairs to find me in tears, and I just looked at him & asked him "WHY ???"


My heart hurts...

Blah blah blah.. That's just how I'm feeling lately.

Work is annoying me, I am feeling really undervalued :/

But I did take a big step on something else in my life, I finally got my G1 Driver's Licence.. Here in Ontario, they do a graduated system, you get your G1, have that for 8- to a year, then you get your G2 for a year or more, then you finally get your full licence.

Other than that not much has been going on in the Wicked household...

End of june..

I have been ok lately..

I did a FB friend cleanse, I defriended some people, some were Ladies from TB, I don't feel bad about it.. The way I looked at it was, if you haven't bothered to say anything to me in the last while, esp. with all the Dr's visits , then you didn't need to be my FB friend. That and I had a feeling some people were telling others about what I was saying. Yes I know this is public blah blah blah but my FB is set to private, so that only friends can see things..

No real changes to anything right now, still at stage 3 :/

I met up with old friends to see New Kids on The Block on June 7th, and I am going again on July 28th, this time with my sister Julie and Lauren again  !! I love hanging out with my friend Lauren, we have known each other since elementary school, her and her wife are Fab ! I love seeing these guys in concert !

Me and C did a last minute getaway to Niagara Falls recently & we went to Niagara On the Lake, I definitely want to go back to NOTL & do a few wine tours..

Well we have another trip booked ! This time to Jamaica, more specifically to Montego Bay, I can't wait, sun, warmth, beach & drinks !! This will be an anniversary/birthday trip in Nov.

This is my heart yet again...

After the Kidney diagnosis, we had decided to Adopt ! That was all fine & dandy until today...

I had an urgent (meaning almost 2 month wait) to see my Kidney dr, because of my episode in Jan with my Blood pressure.

Fuck this shit ! My fuction went down again.. I am now in stage 3, can't get Pg on my own, and Adoption talk is off.. I can't in good concious try & bring a child in to my home knowing that I am not in the best health.